Good-bye old friend.

He is gone. Our poor, old, beloved pooch is being put down today. My mom just left to take him and I am so sorrowful. I have been crying for what seems like hours, my eyes are puffy I'm sure and my skin feels tight. My throat hurts like I've just been throwing up and I can't suppress the sadness in my heart. I can't describe how sad I feel that I will never see ol' Dudders again.
I am remembering the good times we had with him...I distinctly remember one time when our family took him (this was before we had Penny) to Aldergrove Park. My friend Jena was with us and I remember being next to the man-made lake there, and we knew we couldn't take him in there to get a drink, so Jena and I took off our hats and ran back a forth with "hatfuls" of water, trying to quench his thirst. It worked. :) *small smile*

I know remember last summer when we were sure the heat would make him kick the can. Countless days he endured the furnace known as our living facility. I felt so sorry for him. 

Now he has to endure that no more. Every single pain of this earth is over. 

Before he left I went to say goodbye, I told him I loved him, and that I would never forget what he was to me. He was our first dog, a form of joy, and laugh every now and then. So many tears have been shed out of affection and sorrow. I was with him for the past couple hours, it's hard to believe that they were his last hours. 

I now know what it feels like to truly have your heart break. </3

And to make things worse, two years ago today, I met and befriended Penny. It seems horrible to me that they joyful occasion on which I acquired a best friend for life, I also lost a friend. Independence Day (for the USA), in a way, Penny was named after that holiday. indePENdeNce daY. :) 

I will always miss you, boy. You will hold a place in my heart forever. Goodbye old friend. 

~Emma